Thursday, October 28, 2010

‘cause the World needs more joy :)

Even if you’re sad and down inside; even if you need to cry; even when things seem so overwhelming; even if the pain just won’t go away, put it aside, push it away, look to your friends’ interests, sympathize, empathize.

Perhaps, what you need is more of a dose of helping others, and not a dose of wallowing in self-pity.


For self-pity is such a selfish thing. It encloses you in your own little world. Every difficulty enlarged; every situation against you. You suffer.

Others suffer along.

Selfish, self-centered person!

People try their best to be with you, yet you taint them with your foul mood; destroy the day for them; killjoy.


Nooo! I’m not angry!

Just annoyed.



Sunday, October 24, 2010

Weird thing!

My “meeehhh day” starts at night. Which causes difficulty in sleeping for me. =.=’

Thank God his mercies is renewed every day, and his joy will come in the morning, though the sorrows may last for the night.


So, the response was very unexpected. The sanctuary was crowded. The normally stiff congregation got about and moved. The youths actually did jump! Will they still be doing that when the artists leave and the more “normal” ones come back?

I suppose we do need to loosen up much more. If we’re going to do it for the Lord, we’re going to do it for the Lord; no holding back! Why the need to be so self-conscious?

The only thing you have to think about is this: will what I’m doing, in my expression of worship, cause others to stumble?

Of course, I do see the need for reverence. After all, the fear [reverence, awe…] of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, isn’t it? But that doesn’t mean we speak of him in hush-hush tones, pray with some weird, English accent you don’t use in normal conversation.

It means to seek His will in all things, at all places; to stand for His truth; to glorify his name.

Once that’s settled, inwardly, it will be settled outwardly, too. For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks.

Just as Juwita Suwito said, you’ve to feel the song, mean it, and it’ll just naturally show on your every move, every expression, every gesture.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Sad fact:-

I’m not “one of the guys”.

I don’t play football. I don’t watch football. I’m terrible at most sports. I don’t discuss girls (really! Don’t believe izzit!). My interests are weird and varied, many of which they don’t even bother about.

Certainly not “one of the girls”, either.

I’m not a fan of K-pop. I don’t discuss guys (weird!). I don’t read manga. I don’t watch TV series (maybe except HIMYM).

SOOOO, where do I fit in? I flit between both. Knowing both sides, yet not close to any. Jack of all trades, master of none, eh?

Or maybe I’m just a little too unique :P.


So little time, so many things!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


While the others are going on and on about how bored and how empty their schedules are, I’m far from bored, and my schedule is packed! List time!

  1. Choir Practice---Every Tuesday & Sunday
  2. VBS Band Practice---Every Monday & Friday
  3. Various “outings”---RANDOM! :O
  4. Meetings! (Mysterious aura to make it seem more important)
  5. 3 books to read. >.>
  6. Books to bind (Sorry Nat & Viann! >.> Stepping right on it)
  7. Going on Facebook and getting depressed.


Really. Facebook is DEPRESSING these days. Now with PMR candidates all free and with nothing to do (well, at least for them), it’s flooded with status updates and comments! What status updates?

EMO/LOVE status updates! Things like these:

“If only I could have you, I would give everything in the world away……………………………………………………….”

“Sigh, so near yet so far……………………………….. I want to talk to you but…. I scared I annoy you…………. Am I?……….”

“Why are you all so like this one….. Can’t you see I can’t take it anymoreee????………………….”

“Aiyooooooo, bored like heck laa…………”

Okayyy, the ellipses and exaggerated but, really! So annoying! And I’m not going on to the typographical aspects!

Get a life! Go find a hobby. Get out! Organize something! If you choose to stay at home and not do anything, FINE. But don’t complain!

You like that guy/girl? GO! Tell him/her how you feel!

If you don’t, and decide instead to leave vague, soppy, trite statements on Facebook, and then leaving us hanging there when we ask “What’s wrong?”, pretending that everything’s ALL RIGHT when you’re “broken deeeeep down, putting up a smile to face you all when, really, I’m just so broken”, and then thinking that nobody understands you… Gah. I wish I can keysmash right now.

Go find your best friend to talk to instead. Please.

Not done yet!

Those commenters who foul up people’s mind with their “wisdom”, going “everything will be all right wan laaa ^^, god won’t let you do something you don’t like wannnn”, or something of that sort. Worse thing is, the person who posted that thing is really looking for something comforting and just laps it up!

Steam steam steam steam-

I should really go get a life, like right now.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010


Whenever I feel depressed(well, I DO get depressed!), my mind gets full of things to blog about. About how sucky everything is, about how terrible things are, how unfair some situations are……

SO, I open my Windows Live Writer, and stare at the blank page. Thoughts buzzing around. Emotions fluttering about.

Then I decide not to write anything.

and I haven’t, and won’t ever, regret doing that :).

Because, I know that soon and very soon, my God will deliver me from this ditch, for though the sorrow may last for the night, His Joy will come in the morning :). He’ll carry me up, and lift my head up high. and I can smile.

Now, don’t blame me for not talking or sharing my thoughts and emotions; it’s just that I’ve a great God, and he’s more than enough.

Friday, October 8, 2010


Every time before going into the exam room (yup, I’m lucky to be sitting for the exams in a class!), I pray.

I close my eyes. Bow my head.

God meets me.

My heart is stilled; my mind clear. Deep, abiding joy fills me ~over and over~!

How can you not say my God isn’t an awesome God? He cares about trivial things as much as “big” things.

Paul, after all, did write “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”

And what happens?

“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”

I’m soooo not going to ramble on and on what that verse means. It’s quite self-explanatory :P.

4 random thoughts, since there’s, like, 4 days to the end of.. oh never mind.

  1. Time taken to shade answer is longer than time taken to answer question.
  2. Why am I so happy!
  3. I lift up my eyes to the hill from whence cometh my help; my help cometh from ~the Lord~---the Lord of all heaven and earth!


Just so you know.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


And then the thief comes in the night and stole away my confidence.


Thank God I regained it back. Though I sort of did panic when I was just starting to write the Bahagian C essay and looked at the clock---11:10 already! :O. That’s like, 40 minutes away to the end!

Then my handwriting deteriorated. Like, gasp.


Anyway, I made it in time (thank God!), though the handwriing was shaky (only for the 2nd half of the long long essay [not exactly] and literature component, though).


I’m wishing for an interesting English essay…. Or is it up to me to make it “interesting” again…? >.>

Oh well :P.

7 days.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Just thinking:

People state the importance of religion, especially when they see all these moral decadence, making it seem like some cure-all for all ills. Yet, when you go onto the topic of religion, they shy away, saying things like, “All religions are inherently good, the non-satanist ones, that is, so choose whichever you like,” or, “All of them teach good things; why don’t you just see which values you like from each, and pick?”

And when they stress the importance of religion, they stress the values part, the teachings. It’s as if they just want to get what they want from religions and ignore commitment.

And then there’s the thing with moral decadence---only YOUTHS are doing it. When you see the titles for essays (especially in Malay test papers), it’s all about youths doing drugs, smoking, somethingortheother…..

What about adults? Are they not responsible for whatever happened? Not to say that youths aren’t responsible for their actions, but adults are the trend-starters. The trend then spreads to the youths.

An adults smoking? Ah, normal scene.

A youth smoking? Oh my goodness! This is bad! Laws should be passed, enforced, made stricter! What the world has got into…!

Well, of course, that’s just exaggeration, but you get what I mean…. right?


I do not endorse smoking; I hate second-hand smoke. It kills everyone around the smokee. Waste of money.

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